Encounters

I want to forget the things I want to forget. I want to move on and think about things, I actually want to think about. Ideally, I would want to wipe my memory of some things while still keeping the things that I learnt from it. But, this is the defence mechanism of the brain, it is how it works and how it tries to save us, warn us about making the same mistakes or decisions again. Though the memories are unpleasant, it keeps us alive. And I really don't want to make more mistakes. (again)

Though I do consciously know the lessons I have learnt, without feeling the fear/pain. the memories just bombards me with a daisy chain of more memories and hence more and more emotions about things. And those memories occur the most when you encounter the things that caused you harm. Encounters when you're minding your own business, when having fun when being calm, just shatter the current state of mind and I hate it when it happens.

Naturally, to seem like an alpha, the strong one, the one who is stable and able to face challenges, anti-forces, dangers, a human being learns from the mistakes and faces it in new ways. I don't think I will complete give up on some concepts just because I have faced challenges and obstacles when learning about it. But when these memories of fear and harm come to you, to move on, I think you should just ignore them to make them a minor forgettable thing but still keeping the things you have learned from and made mistakes in mind.

So, the next time I encounter things, I would want them to make no difference on my day but only when trying out the thing that I had failed in, the precautions of experiences should help. Ideally

But I think it's true about what they say. No Pain; No Gain

Happy π day, everyone. Something that is as simple as a circle gave us π which is infinite and never ending, yet nobody exactly knows it's value. You will never be correct on what π is. And that's how I see life, you will never know enough about it, it's just learn, adapt, act, repeat till you achieve your infinity.